yeah. still alive.

Name: S....... K......
Birthdate: July 12, 1984
Birthplace: London, England
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: brown
Zodiac Sign: cancer (ironically, what i might die of, too)
Innie or Outtie: innie

DESCRIBE...
Your heritage: indian (marwari-reddy)
The shoes you wore today: none.. socks
Your eyes: honest, revealing, "windows"
Your weakness: someone loving me
Your fears: loneliness

WHAT IS...
Your most overused phrase online: probably "lol"
Your thoughts first waking up: "meh.. who cares? i'll just skip it again"
The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: warmth
Your best physical feature: legs ;)
Your bedtime: varies... but too late to be healthy
Your greatest accomplishment: accepting the fact that i couldnt do it alone, and getting help
Your most missed memory: spending each and every day with my best friend

YOU PREFER...
Pepsi or coke: definitely coke..
McDonald's or Burger King: mickey d's
Single or group dates: probably single..
Adidas or Nike: sportswear? me? hahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahah
Chocolate or vanilla: need you ask? chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee: medium double double.. or a latte.
Bras or Panties: bras. definitely bras. have i never told you about my addiction?

DO YOU...
Swear: yes.. but i still sound like a little kid when i do it..
Take a shower everyday: er.. sometimes im just too tired
Have a crush?: of course.. freddie prinze jr ;)
Do you think you've been in love?: yes. i have.
Want to go to college: no. sadly, im already there. but given a choice, i'd drop out and...
Want to get married: yes, that's what i'd drop out to do.
Type with your fingers on the right keys: for the most part, yeah.. except for my right pinky, which sticks up in the air..
Get motion sickness: sometimes..
Think you're attractive: there are days..
Get along with your parents: again, there are days..
Like thunderstorms: love them.. especially when im inside with a hot cup of tea.. and afterwards, when im outside jumping in puddles..
Play an instrument: used to play the piano and violin... now i play percussion.. on the wall, or the floor, or my knee, or your back, or anything else i can pound a rhythm out on..

IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU...
Smoked: yes.. but i also quit this month. yay for m1!
Done a drug: yes. but nothing illegal.
Gone to the mall: er.. no
Eaten sushi: no.. but i've been craving it..
Been on stage: yes!! third place!!! woot!!
Gone skating: nope
Made homemade cookies: nope..
Dyed your hair: nope
Stolen anything: er.. nothing tangible

HAVE YOU EVER...
Flown on a plane: of course..
Missed school because it was raining?: yep! also cuz it was snowing... and cuz it was cold.. and cuz it was grey.. and cuz it was warm and pretty..
Cried during a movie?: even the not sad ones.
Ever thought an animated character was hot?: lol.. aladdin!! (and dimitri from anastasia.. but he's nowhere near aladdin on the hotness scale)
Had an imaginary friend?: of course.. sooni! there was good-sooni, and bad-sooni. bad sooni did all the naughty things like messing up my room, but good-sooni would always help me to clean it up.
Been on stage?: yep.. :D
Cut your hair: wtf? of course i have.. oh wait.. have i ever cut my own hair? oh yes.. i have..
Had crush on a teacher?: not really.. i thought that Mr J and Mr C were fairly attractive, but i didnt have crushes on them..
Played a game that required removal of clothing: strip poker.. yes..
Gotten beaten up: yes, several times
Been in a fight: yes

THE FUTURE...
Age you hope to be married: 23
Numbers and Names of Children: two girls and a boy.. not sure about names yet though
What do you want to be when you grow up?: a mommy. and maybe something international development related.
What country would you most like to visit?: thailand..

OPPOSITE SEX...
Best eye/hair color: dark hair, light eyes
Best height: taller than me.. which leaves a fairly large margin
Best weight: proportional to height..

NUMBER OF...
Number of drugs taken illegaly: er.. i've never taken an illegal drug.. but i've taken someone else's prescription drug, which i think is illegal..
Number of people I could trust with my life: around 10.. sadly, im not one of them
Number of CDs that I own: enough
Number of piercings: two..one in each ear
Number of tattoos: none.. yet
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: *shrug* probably never.. im not all that important or significant
Number of scars on my body: quite a few..
Number of things in my past that I regret: too many to count.. four big things (not taking wolfy's advice in grade 12; not taking school seriously; not being upfront with my parents about my relationship with A; kissing the boy)

FAVORITES...
Shampoo: outrageous
Color: pink! or black..
Day/Night: depends on the day.. right now, i prefer the day..
Summer/Winter: summer, definitely summer
Food: ice cream? i dunno..
Movies: P&P; Shrek; When Harry Met Sally; K3G; Saathiya; Hum Tum..

RIGHT NOW...
Wearing: er.. a sweatshirt
Drinking: nothing..
Thinking about: the fact that i should really be working on my accounting assignment
Listening to: the mujhse dosti karoge medley.. "aap yahan aaya kis liye?"

IN THE LAST 24 HOURS...
Cried: a little bit
Worn jeans: yes
Done laundry: yes
Drove a car: yes
Talked on the phone: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...
Yourself: very rarely
Your friends: always
God: sometimes

FRIENDS AND LIFE...
Do you ever wish you had another name?: occasionally... being called "shawna" and then having to spell it out, and explain that it rhymes with "prada" gets tedious sometimes.
Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: ... no.
Do you like anyone?: yes
Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: i dont know.. JKMAC maybe?
Who do you like to hang around the most?: people i love.. people that love me..

Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion 46% Stability 30% Orderliness 23% Empathy 63% Interdependence 36% Intellectual 36% Mystical 30% Artistic 30% Religious 43% Hedonism 63% Materialism 56% Narcissism 30% Adventurousness 23% Work ethic 10% Self absorbed 36% Conflict seeking 23% Need to dominate 16% Romantic 56% Avoidant 30% Anti-authority 56% Wealth 56% Dependency 83% Change averse 70% Cautiousness 30% Individuality 30% Sexuality 50% Peter pan complex 63% Physical security 90% Food indulgent 30% Histrionic 50% Paranoia 23% Vanity 50% Hypersensitivity 76% Female cliche 63%

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Stability results were low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.

trait snapshot:
messy, irritable, depressed, fragile, worrying, emotionally sensitive, does not like to lead, phobic, weird, suspicious, low self control, paranoid, frequently second guesses self, dependent, unproductive, introverted, weak, strange, unassertive, submissive, familiar with the dark side of life, feels invisible, rash, vain, anti-authority, heart over mind, low self concept, disorganized, not good at saving money, avoidant, daydreamer, unadventurous.

oh excellent. nothing i didnt know, really, but seeing it laid out like this makes it so much more.. sad.

It's Cool, We Can Still Be Friends

Yeah, you still kiss me, but it's just on the cheek
Yeah, you still kiss me, but it's just on the cheek
Yeah, you still kiss me sometimes, but it's just on the cheek
You pull away so easily

And I still call you, but I get your machine
And I still call you, but I get your machine
And if I'm lucky I guess, I get your roommate answering
But you're at the bar, or at Gene's

And we go to dinner, but you won't hold my hand
We sit at the same table, but we don't play with our feet
Yeah, we still go to dinner sometimes, but we don't sneak a kiss
When the waitress turns around

And we still watch movies, but we don't share the couch
And we still rent movies, but we don't share the couch
Yeah, we still watch movies sometimes, but you don't lay in my lap
The plot is slow, take a nap

And you even stay over, but now we stay in our clothes
Yeah, you'll even sleep over, but now we stay in our clothes
Yeah, you even sleep over sometimes, but we stay in our clothes
I'm only there so that you're not alone

And you say that I hurt you, in a voice like a prayer
Yeah, you say that I've hurt you, and your voice is like a prayer
Yeah, well maybe I hurt you sometimes, but let's contrast and compare
Lift up your shirt, the wound isn't there

I guess that your truth, is just the ghost of your lies
I guess your kind of truth, is just the ghost of your lies
Yeah, your kind of truth, darling, is just the ghost of your lies
I see through them all the time

So I'm pouring some whiskey, I'm gonna get drunk
Yeah, I'm pouring myself some whiskey, I'm going to get really fucking drunk
I'm pouring some whiskey right now, I'm going to get so, so drunk
That I pass out, forget your face, by the time I wake up.

-Bright Eyes


borrowed from AL... I feel your pain.

So In Love With You

Everytime our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than i can take

Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love
And it just blows me away

I've never been this close
To anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I dont know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps gettin better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark

Your hair all around me
baby you surround me
And touch every place in my heart

Oh, it feels like the first time everytime
I wanna spend the whole nite in your eyes

I dont know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps gettin better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you


I'm so in love with you
It just keeps gettin better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever

Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by.. you

-Lonestar

How Will I Die?

So, while I continue to boycott all "low fat" and "heart healthy" products, in favour of "die soon" foods.. it looks like cancer might be inching up there.. yay for cigarettes!

Nothing to Lose

Need more friends with wings
All the angels I know put concrete in my veins
I'd always walk home alone
So I became lifeless just like my telephone...

There's nothin to lose
When no one knows your name
There's nothin to gain
But the days don't seem to change

Never played truth or dare
I'd have to check my mirror to see if I'm still here
My parents had no clue
That I ate all my lunches alone in the bathroom

There's nothin to lose
When no one knows your name
There's nothin to gain
But the days don't seem to change
There's nothin to lose
My note book will explain
There's nothin to gain
And I can't fight the pain


Teacher said it's just a phase
When I grow up my children will probably do the same,

Kids just love to tease
Who'd know it put me underground at seventeen?

There's nothin to lose
When no one knows your name
There's nothin to gain
But the days don't seem to change
There's nothin to lose
My note book will explain
There's nothin to gain
And I can't fight the pain

There's nothin to lose
When no one knows your name
There's nothin to gain
But the day's don't seem to change.
There's nothin to lose
When no one knows your name
There's nothin to gain
And I just died today


- Billy Talent

Thanks, Kats :)

"My wife used to fart when she was nervous. She had all sorts of wonderful little idiosyncrasies. She used to fart in her sleep. One night it was so loud it woke the dog up. But Will, she's been dead for 2 years, and that's the shit I remember. Those are the things I miss the most. The little idiosyncrasies that only I know about. That's what made her my wife. People call these things imperfections, but there not. That's the good stuff."
- Good Will Hunting

Feels Like Home

Something in your eyes
Makes me want to lose myself
Makes me want to lose myself
In your arms

There's something in your voice
Makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts
The rest of my life

If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've felt so low
If you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks down a long dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see through the dark there's light

If you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
If you knew how happy you are making me
I've never thought I'd love anyone so much

Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

Anyone recognize any of these?

I definitely know three of them.. can someone maybe help me out?