okay, that's enough with the song lyrics. might as well just come out and say it, rather than beating about the bush.

it hurts. the more i think about it, the more painful it is. but you always have to suffer the worst of the sickness before you can recover.. so, i'll put on a happy face, and deal with it.. if i keep pretending that im alright, sooner or later, i will begin to believe it. and once i believe it, i WILL be alright.

i know that it's over.. once and for all.. we're past the point of no return.. there's no going back, now. but i can look back on all the good times. and there were so many of those. i'll miss them, but i know that the good times will come back, eventually. i know that they will never be the same, but i hope that it won't be too long.

celine dion is not the happiest music to listen to. lots of heartbreak, and sacrifice, and sorrowful love. a little depressing, really. but maybe i should stop pretending that im okay, and let myself be upset. that was the problem, after all.. pretending. but no. im not letting the situation beat me. we all know that it's for the best. time will make it better; until then, i'll keep faking it. after all... "the result of this deception is very strange to tell.. for when i fool the people i fear, i fool myself as well"

damn. i resorted to a song lyric again. why are they always so damn relevant?

*sigh*

life goes on... because although "inside my heart is breaking, my makeup may be flaking, but my smile stays on... the show MUST go on"