research sucks.. what in god's name made me decide to be an arts student. i should have just stuck it out with sciences rather than dropping them after grade 10.. actually, no, then i'd have to do labs. forget that. commerce then. why didnt i apply to commerce? oh yeah.. you need to be smart for that. dammit.. i guess being in econ is the only thing i COULD do.. but why am i taking politics and english?!?!? because im an idiot. oh yes. that's why.

i was nerdy today (someone is rubbing off on me.. and i dont mean that in the dirty way.. although i suppose that interpretation holds, too) and went and put together a spreadsheet to calculate all my weighted marks etc to figure out how im doing in each course. mildly depressing, but at least it's all organized, and i can clearly see how im doing, and what needs work and all that kinda stuff.
so.. currently getting an 81 in 239, an 89 in 250, and a 91.5 in 222.. as my overall marks.. woohoo. not doing quite so well in pols, or english.. oh well.. i'll fix that, from here on in...

syd is in toronto.. for study week.. very happy coincidence.. so we're meeting up for coffee/hot chocolate/lemonade (contingent on weather.. although it's been snowing.. boo.. so i suppose lemonade is out.. although, i guess it doesnt REALLY matter.. screw the norms! rebel, i say! drink lemonade in the winter!) should be nice to catch up with her, especially since i've been so bloody neglectful of the whole emailing thing.. it'd be soo much easier if the entire world was just on MSN.. but no, syd has to be responsible, and refuses to fritter away her time online, the way i do. :p to her. ah well, i love her anyway.

my skin is really dry. so are my eyes. threw out the grey contacts i've been wearing for the past month or so, and switching to a green pair today. i really ought to get my eyebrows done, and upper-lip, too.. getting quite revolting. no time, though. maybe there's somewhere i can go in kingston...

*aachhooo* NO! i cant get sick! no time for sickness! if i had that kind of time to spare, i would much rather spend it getting groomed.. i desperately need a manicure.. a pedicure would be nice too.. my poor footsies are looking very sad, having been trapped inside (albeit INCREDIBLY cute) boots for the past few months..

j'ai faim. qu'est-ce qu'il y a manger? rien. i've eaten it all, already. hmm.. there MUST be some chocolate downstairs, though.. oh, and there's that chocolate fudge cheesecake in the fridge.. mmm..

weighed myself today: 100.8 lbs! progress. but that was in the morning.. let's go see what i way now, shall we? 102.6?!?!? how the bloody hell?!? hmm.. well i DID eat.. and i had a shower, so my hair is wet (wet hair is heavier, yeah?).. and im wearing a fairly heavy, chunky knit sweater.. that cant possibly account for 1.8 lbs, can it? oh, well, i suppose it can. DAMN. maybe i'll take a break this afternoon to hop on the treadmill.. or the exercise bike.. or the ski-machine thingy.. not the step thing.. that's boring.

oh no, i cant! it's already half past one.. i have two and a half hours to do research before syd gets here.. and then once she leaves, i'll have about an hour before i have to eat dinner, and leave myself. oh no. the fat will just continue to build up, i suppose. *sob, sob*

maybe once all these assignments and essays are out of the way, i can head over to the PEC for one of their cardio classes or something.. that might work.

okay, ten to two. enough procrastination. must get back to my darling evelyn waugh.. (who was a guy! - see Lost in Translation)

hoorah for satirical examinations of the world.. bigger hoorah for my complete and utter lack of caring.

*sigh* --> once again, for the record, i sigh because breathing is essential in order to sustain life, and i have extremely audible exhalations. :p